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Clueless

2009-02-03T02:04:00.000-08:00

Its been 330 days since my last post and I certainly hope this one makes a tinge of sense unlike the others. The lights are out, Beatles queued up for the next hour and a sane mood, the perfect ingredients for a blog post and I still have no clue what this is going to be about.

Hence, ladies and gentleman I present to you 'Clueless'! This post is everything you need to know about nothing.

I am sure you have been there and done your best to get rid of it. Well, this ain't about getting you out of it. Its about making you feel the blankness of a bare mind.

Some answers in life are better off when kept unanswered. The most convenient option being, leaving it to nature. Whether its the true worth of your love or about the reason of your existence. Sometimes there might be some answers you don't want to hear, some outcome you don't want to come, some feeling you don't want to feel. So when you think you can't face the answer to your own question, why ask it?

Imagine, if the result of an election is pre-determined by the opinion polls. All hope is lost in a jiffy. There is disappointment, lack of determination to work and no purpose. Thankfully, this doesn't happen in most cases. All credit, for a change, goes to that minority who decided to stay indecisive. Its these people, who give the candidate a reason to play which keeps them running for longer.

Regardless of the chances of a success resulting from your decision, it might still be a good idea to let your question find its own answer. When something that has occupied your thoughts for a considerable amount of time ends in a disappointment, even that tad of hope that existed before is now lost, leaving you with nothing but a failure.

Its Been Awhile

2008-03-09T11:15:00.000-07:00

I yam back!!!!!!
Been ages since I blogged!!!!!
To quickly update my 'wide readers' about my life in the past few months...
First of all, I am in college now!!! And I am 18!!!! And most importantly I got over my Tetris addiction!!!! :D

Sounds fun?

Well, it isn't! :P

College ain't all that great. I still can't drink alcohol legally. And now I am addicted to Spider Solitaire. :P

But, fear not! Beatles has kept me happy all this while. I have officially fallen in love with their music! Please listen to all their songs. :)

Oh and I made quiiiiiiite a few friends in the last few months. Some good ones too.

Ok, I am done. Bye.

2007-06-12T08:55:00.000-07:00

The Impossible Quiz

I dont need no title...!

2007-05-02T07:24:00.000-07:00

Well...well...well...We meet again. The only time I blog is when I am PISSED. But this time, I m not that PISSED. Just a little bugged with the way things are going :(. I have nothing to talk about. So I am just going to shut up about my life :P!
Let me try talkin about something other than my life this time. For instance, about the positions one takes while carrying out nature's second most pleasurable activity in bed.
Well, don't get ideas. Sex is the first, not second.:P
Second would be sleeeeeeeepppiing!!! Something I have been doing quite a lot lately.
Hehe...I couldn't come up with anything better :P.

"Scientists believe the position in which a person goes to sleep provides an important clue about the kind of person they are."

They figured out 6 distinct positions:

Foetus
Log
The yearner
Soldier
Freefall
Starfish.

I found four of them to be the most interesting.
The foetus is supposed to be the most common. Nearly 41% of the world population sleeps with this position and its kinda true.

Well, thats the foetus position and that happens to be my cute little cousin, Sejal. Isn't she adorable :D.

The one below is Priya. I shall not explain what she was doing before taking that picture, but all that matters is that she is sleeping in the foetus position :P!

Well...this is what I found about people who sleep in this position.

"Those who curl up in the foetus position are described as tough on the outside but sensitive at heart. They may be shy when they first meet somebody, but soon relax."

Ahem...Anyway, the next one is slightly weird. Its called the yearner position and guess who sleeps in it......
Its candy's dog!!!!!!

Yay!!!!!!!
Her name is lassie. Candy, this is for her...

"People who sleep on their side with both arms out in front are said to have an open nature, but can be suspicious, cynical. They are slow to make up their minds, but once they have taken a decision, they are unlikely ever to change it."

cynical eh???

The next position is called the soldier and thats me. :D

"Lying on your back. People who sleep in this position are generally quiet and reserved. They don't like a fuss, but set themselves and others high standards."

This is getting interesting!!!
This is the last I got. The freefall position.
And that would be Sagar. I really don't know if the description really suits him. But, thats for you to decide...here it goes.

"Lying on your front with your hands around the pillow. Often gregarious and brash people, but can be nervy and thin-skinned underneath, and don't like criticism, or extreme situations."

If your position isn't here, worry not! If you belong to the last two positions, send me your picture for the benefit of humanity :).

Log (15%): Lying on your side with both arms down by your side. These sleepers are easy going, social people who like being part of the in-crowd, and who are trusting of strangers. However, they may be gullible.

Starfish (5%): Lying on your back with both arms up around the pillow. These sleepers make good friends because they are always ready to listen to others, and offer help when needed. They generally don't like to be the centre of attention.

A perfect guide to tell you which type of position you belong to,

Source:BBC NEWS: Health: Sleeping positions give personality clue

it just couldn't get better....!!!

2007-04-13T19:43:00.000-07:00

ok..! why my life sucks part III.......!!!!

i m sick...! feels sooooooooo goood...!
i looked up the internet to tally my symptoms....found one exact match...check it out...

" The following symptoms will occur 10-21 days after exposure to chicken pox:

Low grade fever.
Runny nose, slight cough.
Decrease in appetite.
Headache.
Tired, rundown feeling.
These symptoms usually occur 24-48 hours before the spots appear on the body..
When the spots first appear they will start on the chest, back, or face, and eventually are seen over the entire body. The spots may occur in the mouth as white ulcers, and as ulcers in the ears and eyes."

one whole year I wait for this exam....and here it goes...!!! i get sick 2 days before it...!

screwed my boards, thinking i might get another chance at the VIT entrance exam...the only college i applied for...the only entrance i was supposed to write...but it just had to screw up...! :((
Ruined my bloody career. And now i am stranded in my room all day...nothing to do...nothing to read...have curd rice for lunch...dinner...and everything between it...! gaah!
My only entertainment, perhaps would be counting the number of spots I developed...and yea...i got tetris...and maybe wait for my phone to ring...which never happens...even if it does...the name of the caller turns out to be disappointing...but...i got MUSIC...! yay!!!
currently running the 246 shuffle song on my ipod...waitin for the battery to die out...then i go back to counting the spots for a couple of hours...basically...i m having a very nice time...with so many things in my head...which definetely doesnt help my sickness...
and the exam is not the only thing i m missing...i missed a concert too...was dyein to hear a chennai band perform....called "afterburn"...missed a concert a couple of months back...becoz of sum filthy exam...and now i miss another...!!!
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

18 hour vacation..!

2007-04-02T11:41:00.000-07:00

My previous post was a little too harsh....so let me just cover up for something...dont want the pain to hurt that much...
wel..let me talk about somethin irrelevant...i really cant think much about anything else...d only other good reason why my life sucks again would be my trip to bangalore....
Never expected too much from the trip...thought i would get bored...but it had to turn out much worse...
i decided use the trip for myself...to improve myself...to accept the world as it as and probably decide to live in it and with it...i wanted some time out for myself...just wanted to sort out my life...
but it just didnt have to happen...i have no idea what god expects from me...
i was in bangalore for 18 hours...thats all d time i had to sort out my life...have some fun...meet my relatives...hang out with them...go on lonely walks...watch a couple of movies...visit a couple of malls and probably even some shopping...

obviously none of that happened...it was an empty trip...i came back the next morning...
and it felt so weird...the same train...the same seat...the same breakfast...the same water bottle...it felt like some big time deja vu...very weird...
but nevermind...i could still use the time in chennai...i went into isolation...tried to sort out my life...pretended dat i was in b'lore and most of my friends even thought i was...it wasnt a bad idea...managed to take a few decisions...hopefully the right ones...
the fun part didnt happen cause of some stupid strike...i m so not in a mood to write...

p.s. if you are still awake after readin this...man! u got patience....

THE WORLD SUCKS and YOU CANT CHANGE IT!

2007-04-02T02:22:00.000-07:00

hello...this is....my fiends and friends....my new blog...
i say fiends first...only because since i was a kid...i was told to name those things first that have a preference or some kind of majority...no other reason why...

whats so special about my blog?
honestly...i advice you not to even read it...i just had to vent out something on someone...i got no "evil" intentions...i dont intend to ruin somebodys life or just make things a little worse for somebody...unfortunately i cant have a reason for my "evil" act to be something like this...

"i acted dumb and without reason"

it would not buy anybody anywhere...defintely not me...so i guess it wouldnt buy you either...

Back to my blog...why am i even doin this????
i never thought i would even do something like dis...and besides who would like to read a k12 student write about what he feels about the world in a very very primitive language?
it really doesn matter to me...as long as the message is put across a certain audience....who i thought really matterd to me and dat i mattered to them too...i would like to generalise this certain audience as

"THE WORLD"

"The world SUCKS and nobody....absolutely nobody can change it..."

There was a time...lets say 4 years ago...i was probably the most anti social guy i had ever known...introvert...never "interacted" with my fellow humans...people encouraged me to change myself...and i m glad i did..
i am glad that i did try to "interact" with "THE WORLD"...

The reason why i am glad is that...if i hadnt changed...if i hadnt "interacted" with "THE WORLD" ...i would have never known how pathetic the condition of this world could get...
i would have never known...what kind of people lived in it and how "evil" they could get...i would have never come across situations with humans and how well they could betray me at the times i needed them the most...
in a nutshell...i would have never understood people...i say people and not certain people...cause everyone is born to become a part of the same shit...
every single soul that is born, will eventually become a part of the people...a part of the the general public...a part of the same old shit...

In the 4 years of researchin my fellow humans...i thought i found exceptions...no wonder why the research lasted for 4 years...
I was surprised...how could this experiment with a pre-decided result last for 4 whole years...I somehow got into the fantasy that it would last for eternity...but there....BOOM!
there was a chemical explosion in my lab...thats what happens all the time...the higher you go, the harder would be your fall...
so i am just glad...i fell...at the right moment...if it had been a little earlier...it wouldnt have hurt that much...but now it did...in fact...even the pain feels just right...perfect...couldnt feel better...
if the explosion had taken place a little while later...it would have hurt much harder...a pain i couldnt have swallowed...so i m just glad about the timing and accuracy of the fall...it mattered more than it matters while launchin a enthusiastic bungee jumper from the top of the tower...

explosion just symbolises one thing....there aren't any fuckin exceptions to this already so fucked up place called "THE WORLD"...
dats my point...dats it...
there are some pussies out der....who would probably leave me a comment a year or two later...tellin me how sad they felt after readin this blog...about the way life treats me...and how i should never give up hope....n blah...blah...blah...
well to all you pussies out der...hold your voice or i would be holdin your throat...n make a nice snuff film out of it...course...i get to do the finishing touches...well....to those even pussier pussies...d snuff i m talkin abt has nothin to do with wats in your head....
a snuff film is a pornographic film in which at the end of the sexual act the victim is murdered on camera...intrstin? well....make sure you arent starrin in it and you know how to avoid that....

i am goin to diverge a little bit...i am gonna talk about something else now...its indirectly connected to the first phase of this blog...i ain't going into the connection now...
this is a story...
a story about a guy who writes a note to his love
on a little purple hut
telling her that he has had enough
about the names
about the games
about the things that people say
nevr mind about the back beat
let love take a front seat...

well...thats not exactly the story i was talking about...but never mind (not the back beat)...i liked it...
i'll make the story as short as i can...though i really cant make it sweet enough...
theres a guy here too...since its a love theme...we shall bring in a girl too...n duh! he likes her....
a lot...!
but hes confused...really confused...doesn know what to do about the girl...
so he tries to buy some advice...and as usual...there are plenty who supply it....
he turns to a person he always trusted...but he didnt realise that things werent same between them anymore...things changed...so does the world and the people living in it...attitudes change...minds think...and hence change...the so called "friend" supplies no such advice...all he does...is make things worse for him...threatens to mess up all he had...he lies..for his own good...and uses it against his own friend...u must be gettin a blurred view of the situation...wel...i cant help...i aint gettin a clear picture too...
all of this...taught him too many things...
he learned to love...
he learned to hate...
and he learned never to trust a single soul in his life ever again....
and similiarly even his experiment failed...like everybodys who tried...a 0% success rate...

the human genome project has a better success rate than this...too bad...but it teaches every single scientist a lesson...and that matters a great deal...makes him a better scientist...more experienced and very much aware of the dangers ahead of him...the biggest of all being "THE WORLD" itself...

an experiment is always advantageous to a scientist...it being a faliure or a success doesn change the weight of the advantages obtained...

so...what have i learnt from "THE WORLD"...
lets see...
1. "THE WORLD" sucks
2. NEVER...NEVER TRUST ANYBODY...NOBODY AT ALL...!
3. never love
4. never hate
5. just let "THE fucking WORLD" do whatever it fuckin wants...