it just couldn't get better....!!!

ok..! why my life sucks part III.......!!!!

i m sick...! feels sooooooooo goood...!
i looked up the internet to tally my symptoms....found one exact match...check it out...

" The following symptoms will occur 10-21 days after exposure to chicken pox:

Low grade fever.
Runny nose, slight cough.
Decrease in appetite.
Headache.
Tired, rundown feeling.
These symptoms usually occur 24-48 hours before the spots appear on the body..
When the spots first appear they will start on the chest, back, or face, and eventually are seen over the entire body. The spots may occur in the mouth as white ulcers, and as ulcers in the ears and eyes."

one whole year I wait for this exam....and here it goes...!!! i get sick 2 days before it...!

screwed my boards, thinking i might get another chance at the VIT entrance exam...the only college i applied for...the only entrance i was supposed to write...but it just had to screw up...! :((
Ruined my bloody career. And now i am stranded in my room all day...nothing to do...nothing to read...have curd rice for lunch...dinner...and everything between it...! gaah!
My only entertainment, perhaps would be counting the number of spots I developed...and yea...i got tetris...and maybe wait for my phone to ring...which never happens...even if it does...the name of the caller turns out to be disappointing...but...i got MUSIC...! yay!!!
currently running the 246 shuffle song on my ipod...waitin for the battery to die out...then i go back to counting the spots for a couple of hours...basically...i m having a very nice time...with so many things in my head...which definetely doesnt help my sickness...
and the exam is not the only thing i m missing...i missed a concert too...was dyein to hear a chennai band perform....called "afterburn"...missed a concert a couple of months back...becoz of sum filthy exam...and now i miss another...!!!
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

18 hour vacation..!

My previous post was a little too harsh....so let me just cover up for something...dont want the pain to hurt that much...
wel..let me talk about somethin irrelevant...i really cant think much about anything else...d only other good reason why my life sucks again would be my trip to bangalore....
Never expected too much from the trip...thought i would get bored...but it had to turn out much worse...
i decided use the trip for myself...to improve myself...to accept the world as it as and probably decide to live in it and with it...i wanted some time out for myself...just wanted to sort out my life...
but it just didnt have to happen...i have no idea what god expects from me...
i was in bangalore for 18 hours...thats all d time i had to sort out my life...have some fun...meet my relatives...hang out with them...go on lonely walks...watch a couple of movies...visit a couple of malls and probably even some shopping...

obviously none of that happened...it was an empty trip...i came back the next morning...
and it felt so weird...the same train...the same seat...the same breakfast...the same water bottle...it felt like some big time deja vu...very weird...
but nevermind...i could still use the time in chennai...i went into isolation...tried to sort out my life...pretended dat i was in b'lore and most of my friends even thought i was...it wasnt a bad idea...managed to take a few decisions...hopefully the right ones...
the fun part didnt happen cause of some stupid strike...i m so not in a mood to write...

p.s. if you are still awake after readin this...man! u got patience....

THE WORLD SUCKS and YOU CANT CHANGE IT!

hello...this is....my fiends and friends....my new blog...
i say fiends first...only because since i was a kid...i was told to name those things first that have a preference or some kind of majority...no other reason why...

whats so special about my blog?
honestly...i advice you not to even read it...i just had to vent out something on someone...i got no "evil" intentions...i dont intend to ruin somebodys life or just make things a little worse for somebody...unfortunately i cant have a reason for my "evil" act to be something like this...

"i acted dumb and without reason"

it would not buy anybody anywhere...defintely not me...so i guess it wouldnt buy you either...

Back to my blog...why am i even doin this????
i never thought i would even do something like dis...and besides who would like to read a k12 student write about what he feels about the world in a very very primitive language?
it really doesn matter to me...as long as the message is put across a certain audience....who i thought really matterd to me and dat i mattered to them too...i would like to generalise this certain audience as

"THE WORLD"

"The world SUCKS and nobody....absolutely nobody can change it..."

There was a time...lets say 4 years ago...i was probably the most anti social guy i had ever known...introvert...never "interacted" with my fellow humans...people encouraged me to change myself...and i m glad i did..
i am glad that i did try to "interact" with "THE WORLD"...

The reason why i am glad is that...if i hadnt changed...if i hadnt "interacted" with "THE WORLD" ...i would have never known how pathetic the condition of this world could get...
i would have never known...what kind of people lived in it and how "evil" they could get...i would have never come across situations with humans and how well they could betray me at the times i needed them the most...
in a nutshell...i would have never understood people...i say people and not certain people...cause everyone is born to become a part of the same shit...
every single soul that is born, will eventually become a part of the people...a part of the the general public...a part of the same old shit...

In the 4 years of researchin my fellow humans...i thought i found exceptions...no wonder why the research lasted for 4 years...
I was surprised...how could this experiment with a pre-decided result last for 4 whole years...I somehow got into the fantasy that it would last for eternity...but there....BOOM!
there was a chemical explosion in my lab...thats what happens all the time...the higher you go, the harder would be your fall...
so i am just glad...i fell...at the right moment...if it had been a little earlier...it wouldnt have hurt that much...but now it did...in fact...even the pain feels just right...perfect...couldnt feel better...
if the explosion had taken place a little while later...it would have hurt much harder...a pain i couldnt have swallowed...so i m just glad about the timing and accuracy of the fall...it mattered more than it matters while launchin a enthusiastic bungee jumper from the top of the tower...

explosion just symbolises one thing....there aren't any fuckin exceptions to this already so fucked up place called "THE WORLD"...
dats my point...dats it...
there are some pussies out der....who would probably leave me a comment a year or two later...tellin me how sad they felt after readin this blog...about the way life treats me...and how i should never give up hope....n blah...blah...blah...
well to all you pussies out der...hold your voice or i would be holdin your throat...n make a nice snuff film out of it...course...i get to do the finishing touches...well....to those even pussier pussies...d snuff i m talkin abt has nothin to do with wats in your head....
a snuff film is a pornographic film in which at the end of the sexual act the victim is murdered on camera...intrstin? well....make sure you arent starrin in it and you know how to avoid that....


i am goin to diverge a little bit...i am gonna talk about something else now...its indirectly connected to the first phase of this blog...i ain't going into the connection now...
this is a story...
a story about a guy who writes a note to his love
on a little purple hut
telling her that he has had enough
about the names
about the games
about the things that people say
nevr mind about the back beat
let love take a front seat...

well...thats not exactly the story i was talking about...but never mind (not the back beat)...i liked it...
i'll make the story as short as i can...though i really cant make it sweet enough...
theres a guy here too...since its a love theme...we shall bring in a girl too...n duh! he likes her....
a lot...!
but hes confused...really confused...doesn know what to do about the girl...
so he tries to buy some advice...and as usual...there are plenty who supply it....
he turns to a person he always trusted...but he didnt realise that things werent same between them anymore...things changed...so does the world and the people living in it...attitudes change...minds think...and hence change...the so called "friend" supplies no such advice...all he does...is make things worse for him...threatens to mess up all he had...he lies..for his own good...and uses it against his own friend...u must be gettin a blurred view of the situation...wel...i cant help...i aint gettin a clear picture too...
all of this...taught him too many things...
he learned to love...
he learned to hate...
and he learned never to trust a single soul in his life ever again....
and similiarly even his experiment failed...like everybodys who tried...a 0% success rate...

the human genome project has a better success rate than this...too bad...but it teaches every single scientist a lesson...and that matters a great deal...makes him a better scientist...more experienced and very much aware of the dangers ahead of him...the biggest of all being "THE WORLD" itself...

an experiment is always advantageous to a scientist...it being a faliure or a success doesn change the weight of the advantages obtained...

so...what have i learnt from "THE WORLD"...
lets see...
1. "THE WORLD" sucks
2. NEVER...NEVER TRUST ANYBODY...NOBODY AT ALL...!
3. never love
4. never hate
5. just let "THE fucking WORLD" do whatever it fuckin wants...